Wednesday, October 9, 2013

You can't always get what you want, but...

A yoga teacher once told me that "stress is resistance to what is." Pushing against it is like banging your head against the wall; you don't get any where and you end up with a headache, or worse, a bloody head.  As much as I know this, I still find myself, when in difficult situations, pushing instead of taking a deep breath and having faith. Thankfully, what I will call my angels, will intervene and I'll be reminded to focus on the present and all the grace I have received. I would like to say that I am then relieved of my worries, but they do return. I am at the very least, grateful for the reprieve. Okay, why am I blathering on about this?

Well, for one, Trevor and I are once again needing to move as our rent as sky rocketed due to the crazy rental market that is the SF Bay Area. For months we've been spending all our free time looking at apartments that either had stairs, or usually the case, the bathroom was too small for my wheelchair. I don't drive (yet) so it has to be close to public transportation and all the services I need. It has been stressful and disheartening. The best thing we found was, well, dingy and depressing, and I thought "well, if that is what it is going to be I will make the best of it." And I honestly felt at peace with that. After another day of looking at four apartments and not a one working out, the clock was ticking and I was ready to concede. The next day, we had yet another appointment and... we found the place! It's not exactly what we had hoped for, but it will give us what we need and we both feel positive about it. woohoo!!

Finding the apartment did not magically transform me into an enlightened being, but it lifted a few bricks off my back. I am now ready to tackle the other challenges ahead, and I will do my best to recall Miss Jane Fonda when I am ready to take my head to the wall, "don't forget to breathe." ahhhhhh

Another blessing was my third Rev Ride to support BORP (www.borp.org). It is seriously one of my favorite days of the year.  It's one of those days that I wish I had a pause button. This year proved again the magic of community and that nothing beats having the wind blow through my hair as I wind through the hills of Sonoma!  Here is me and my tandem ride partner and amazing friend Elizabeth as we get ready to ride 20 miles.



1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Victoria Arlen, a para olympic swimmer from Exeter, NH, has the same condition as you and is also in a wheel chair. She also developed this within a matter of a short time when she was very young and was in a coma for quite some time. You may want to touch base with her as it is helpful to touch base and make contacts with people who are going through the same situation.

Good luck!