Sunday, April 3, 2011
Do I Have To?
My mother recently and gently mentioned that I hadn't posted anything on my blog for quite some time. Apparently someone actually checked! Well I don't want to disappoint all my readers (Hi Mom!) so I am here to regale you all with an update. Self-deprecating humor aside- there are reasons why I have avoided the update. I suppose I feel when I started this blog my progress was much more tangible and dramatic. When starting from the bottom, everything seems like a tremendous gain. My progress is much less of the leaps and bounds and more like "where do I go from here?" So there it is- where do I go from here? My goals of walking and being fully functioning in a "normal" body- although still the ultimate dream- have now been replaced with how can I be more independent and go back to work while struggling with fatigue and constant pain? So you see, these goals are a lot less fun and dramatic. I don't think a video of me looking through craigslist for a new apartment would be very enticing. But, I do continue on and am VERY thankful for all that I do have! I do have the most awesome, loving and caring husband. I do have supportive and loving friends and family. I am so thankful for the gifts that have been given to my recovery fund. I really cannot imagine my life without the security of knowing I am cared for. So, to anyone reading this, big hugs and lots of love and light. THANK YOU! I will try and write more often. Promise.